loose sleeves

it wasn't the entire month
just the last few days
I really lost it

honestly in some ways
I was thriving, functional
I mean. At home it's just

hours lost to a horizontal position
a mathematical equation, solution
equals zero, equals death. Not dying
I don't do that anymore.

Don't worry, it was just
the last three days and
I'm not sure if it makes sense

I'm sure it's probably not rational
or probably, I mean I'm sure

water is a resource and I tried
to build a damn between you and all
the problems

and me, so in the last three days
I didn't know if I was helping
or wasting effort or becoming
a problem, I'm always so afraid
of becoming a problem.